Monday, February 25, 2013

Spinning out of Control

Again my life is spinning out of control.  Yesterday Louie woke up with a cold and was out of sorts.  as the day progressed he continued to feel sicker.  By the time he went to bed, which was very early, he was miserable.  After a few hours he awoke screaming my name. At this point I wasn't sure, but he either had a nightmare or hallucination.  He insisted he was awake.  Finally I got him settled down and convinced it wasn't real.  About 3 AM he awoke yelling my name again, insisting someone was looking in his window and there were 6 people in our backyard.  I took the dogs and went to inspect the yard to convince him again that it wasn't real.  By 6 AM he had another episode this time I was with him traveling to Las Vegas, San Francisco and China..  By the time he got up his speech was slurred and hard to understand.  He kept coming up with off the wall statements.

Tonight so far he's called me twice into his bedroom because he keeps knocking the bedside table over and he's throwing his covers off.  My heart aches to see him go through this.  And again I'm at a cross roads do I take him against his will to the hospital or do I wait until he gives his consent?  

Dear lord, please ease his suffering...It breaks my heart to see the strong man I've spent my life with slowly slip away and lose his dignity.  He's never been an easy person to love, but he's a good man with strong family values. Why does he have to be tortured so much?  Please bring him peace...

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