Reflections

With the new year just around the corner, it brings thought of the future. Where will this year lead me.  Two years ago my world fell apart as I knew it.  All I thought that was true I had to question. All that I thought about myself changed and my self confidence took a big hit.  So many years I spent trying to emerge into a person I wanted to be and finally thought I had arrived.  Then in a few short months it was blown to pieces and I started to self-examine who I was.  Looking back at the events leading to this I wonder if I could have changed anything. My heart says no and I still believe I did the best I could.  I'm forever changed.  Some good changes and some bad.

As I reflect on the future, all I want to be is happy.  Sounds simple but it's not.  Every action has a reaction. Where do I turn, what do I do?  The best I can do is take baby steps and try to make good choices.  The new year will bring changes, new challenges, and new adventures. Perhaps, I've lived through what I have to show me the endurance I'm capable of during difficult times.  Now I have to find acceptance of those events.