Another year has passed! Last Christmas was a challenge being just a couple of months after Sharon's death, I think the best way to describe how I felt was numb and in shock. Looking back I remember one incident when I was in Walmart and heard the song "Blue Christmas" and ended up sobbing. Just a few days again I again heard that song and was able to at least not embarrass myself. Is this evidence of acceptance? Perhaps! So far, this holiday season is progressing better and I'm not as numb.
For the coming year I'm in search of happiness. I've lost the sparkle I've had for life, which is hard to explain. Everything has a small shadow cast over it and the joy of life isn't as joyful as it once was. I want that back! I'm different and I'm not sure I like that me. I'm quicker to get angry and I'm more critical. It's harder to find the humor in events.
Plans for the coming year include more "ME" time. Whatever needs to be done will be there waiting for me. I'm isolated and I need people and time out among people. Crafts have always been relaxing and because of space and time are now nonexistent.
So I now have challenges for the new year and a plan of action...Up and onward...LOL!
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