What difference a day makes! I feel like a load of bricks have been taken off me. I almost feel like myself. Joy has returned. I knew I was on the road back when I listened to a voice mail and was able to laugh out loud and smile until my cheeks hurt. Friends make all the difference in the world and there's always that one special person that can massage your soul and make all right with the world.
It hit me hard that I was totally unhappy, but wasn't sure how to change it or perhaps not ready to change it. With the holidays and a new year, it's time to change. I can't change some situations, but I can change how I react to them.
I hate that I'm living single without the benefits of being single and living married without the benefits of being married. Living single means I'm responsible for everything, lawns, house repairs, etc, If I was single then I could go out with friends when I wanted to and not feel guilty. Living as a married person you should have a partner to share responsibilities with...Louie can not do anything that I need help with and he wants accounting of all I do and he needs care 24/7. It's a strange place to be caught in. Limbo! Caught between two world...This I cannot change.
What I can change is how I feel about myself. I no longer take care of myself the way I once did. Haven't had a manicure in over a year and I no longer take care of my skin as I once did. And then there's my weight...UGH! I rarely get out because I'm caring for Louie, morning to night. My outward self can be changed by going back to past practices, hence, that should help my self image and make me happier. a win-win situation.
OK world here I come!
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