Me, Myself, I

I think after close to 66 years, I know myself.  First I know I'm 'when life hands you lemons, then make lemonade' type person.  In most situations there are lessons to be learned.  Sometimes I have to think hard and dig deep to try to figure those lessons out and if not the lesson at least, the why which could lead to deeper understanding.  I'm still pondering with a couple, but eventually I will come to either the lesson or the why.  

The last few days have been difficult with missing Sharon and it's been her birthday week.  Last year the kids went to Disneyland and the day passed quietly for me.  This year was very solemn and tearful.  Most times when I'm in a stressful situation, I keep busy.  Oops! Forgot to this time. I wish I could curl up in someone's lap and just be a little girl again.  When my dad did that I felt loved and protected.  But he left, too.

Tomorrow I again go on my quest for happiness...