Letter to Sharon

Dearest Sharon,

It was time, you had to leave, but I wasn't ready or would I ever be ready for your leaving. As I speak to your friends I hear them say you knew you would die young. From the time of your birth I also felt this and was told it was because I chose for you to be my last child. I didn't believe it then and now more than ever do not believe that.

Yes, it's hard to lose a child, but in some ways yoy've made it easier for me. You left me Austin, another love of my life. Also you left Pepper and Poppy who just want to be loved and fed...LOL. THEN, there's this financial mess that keeps me busy until I can heal a little better and perhaps cope with your death. Lastly there's John and I know you loved him, but I blame him for the loss of your spirit. Sorry, but I blame him, not for your death, but for leading you into drug use. You depended on him to give you support and when you needed it, he let you down. He didn't love you the way you needed and should have been loved.

My darling daughter, I wish you peace and the love you've always have seeked. I will take care of the things you've loved (less John) and will miss you for the rest of my life. Even in the short month you've been gone I've reached for the phone many times to talk with you. I miss the hugs you always gave me. I miss YOU! Yes, you were grown up, but you'll always be my baby girl...

LOVE,
Mommy