Once Upon a Time

Once upon a time I had a fairly normal life.  I knew where I was going and how I would get there.  Life was fairly predictable and one day just flowed into another with minor differences.  In the last 3 or so years that has all changed.  I wonder if this is the new normal that SOSL talks about.  If it is I don't like the uncertainty it represents.  So many things in my life are completely out of my control and I feel like I did when I first came to California.  I don't want to be that person, but I don't know how to change my life back to being orderly.  I'm adrift in an ocean of turbulent waters.  I lack purpose and direction.  First I have to find myself.  I've lost me!  I've become a puppet with strings pulling in all directions and the strings need to be cut.  Time to work on me.