Resentment

Today I resent all I have been made to go through. No I'm not angry just because that would take too much energy. What I don't understand is how people go through life doing things and they don't seem to realize that what you do impacts more than just yourself. Louie for years drank to excess and in his later years developed diabetes. Hence, that has affected the whole family. His brain tumor, who knows what has caused that, but I wouldn't doubt his previous lifestyle to have had some influence. The brain tumor has had dramatic changes to everyone, but besides Louie I have given up so much to care for him, a job I loved, my freedom and everyday peace of mind. Then there's Sharon...OMG, I never knew anything could be so emotionally devastating. What the hell was she thinking? Next comes Becky...her eating disorder has torn her apart. Not only is it physically destroying her health but mentally her cognitive reasoning is less than normal. Last but not least, there's Brian. He seems to be in his own LaLa land. Not sure if he's just protecting himself or just being a jerk. Don't know where this is going but my outlook is dismal. My one bright spot is my grandkids...they are wonderful at the moment. Being the person I am, I have high hope that everything will change...Feels good to get that off my chest!