Hindsight & Foresight

Hindsight is reflection of events that happened and hopefully learning from them. Foresight is having intuition to events before they happen or just plain "dumb luck" to do the right thing. Sometimes hindsight will just paralyze your life if you let it. Looking back at events and learning from them is constructive, but getting stuck in these reflections is destructive. Knowing the difference is the challenge. Kinda like playing poker, when to hold and when to fold. Another of life's little lessons. Some say age is wisdom but I thinks life's experiences are wisdom if you let them be. The events of the past year have been the toughest of my life and the most challenging, but probably have taught me the most also. Life is a journey with sometimes having foresight, using hindsight, and at times knowing when to fold. Knowing when to throw up your hands and say "shit happens", I can't change destiny, I have to accept it. I have to live the best I can and be as happy as possible until the next event, hoping it's good.

Beginnings

The new year has begun and my hopes are high for an improved year. Austin has settled into our household comfortably. I guess this has always been his home in a way. He lived here the first few years of his life and came back during breaks from school and for vacations. I've always wanted a home that my children always knew would be waiting for them not matter the circumstances of their return and I think I've achieved that goal. Liz is still hoping for a teaching job and working hard subbing. Becky is still dealing with her eating disorder and I can only pray that this year she'll find dominance over the "beast". Brian is teaching 5th grade and now has aquired 2 Ragdoll cats. Never did I see him as a cat person, this is a surprise...LOL. Then there's Louie and I fear he'll not be with us for long. Not only do I see a decline in his health, but also his will to live has disappeared. He's taken Sharon's death so hard and he just wants to go to her. They've always have had a special connection and his heart is broken over what has transpired.

Yes, our family has a few more trials to endure in the next year, but the tragedies from 2011 are beginning to heal and we are strong! Perhaps there is a lesson in all this chaos...If there is, I am not able to figure it out at this time. Maybe one day I'll have a big A-ha, but not today.

No plans have been made for the coming year. I feel like I need to drift for a while and let life just happen. It will anyway. 2012 has been predicted to be the end and in someways, it has been. But with an end does a beginning follow? Yes, I believe it does. With the end of childhood comes the beginning of adulthood. With the end of Winter comes Spring. So, when one chapter ends in your life and then the next chapter begins.

HERE'S TO THE BEGINNING OF THE NEXT CHAPTER!