Love, Kids, Heartache

As you can surmise from the title, my heart is breaking. When my children were little I thought it was hard to keep them from experiencing hurts. Unfortunately, I have discovered that when they're grown it's much harder. As a parent, you want more from life for your children than you had. Now, I don't think that's possible for many reasons. One being that they are different from you. Another is they have to make their own mistakes and find their own way back. Yet another is they live in a different time. Yes, somethings can be made better, like money and you can love them unconditionally. But when they make the big errors in judgement, only they can rectify it. Those are the times I find the most distressing. I want to fix it, but I cannot. This breaks my heart to have to stand by and watch my children struggle. Also there is quilt. I ask myself the "what if" questions...what did I do wrong? Are there answers and if there are, can a person go back and fix it? I think not. You can only go ahead and do your best.

On the bright side, when a heart is broken, love can glue it back together. Even though, parenting is the hardest job, it is also the most rewarding. To be a parent you need a thick skin and the knowledge that tomorrow will be better. I'm praying tomorrow comes quickly.